Hmmmm

Felt this feeling in my chest tonight

Something I've never felt before

Felt light and dizzy for the shortest time

I was not completely sure

The sensation lingered for a bit, It was not pleasant at all

I don't want to feel that sensation again, I'm not ready to hear the call

Last Time

A heavy heart and an aching soul

This stress is starting to take its toll

Needed by no-one shunned by all the rest

I surely must be failing this test

Life did not change, still mean as bolt of lightening

Violent mood swings, must be oh so frightening

Mean and nasty and as sharp as barbed wire

Eyes that will set the soul on fire

It happened again, I opened the door

I now sit and stare at an empty floor

I don't want much

I don't like being used

I don't appreciate being abused

We never talk about the things that matter

If we try it ends up in confusion and clatter

Why did you come back, did you want to test my will

Or was it my spirit that you just had to kill

Either way you have done the trick

I am mean and nasty and mortally sick

I will never get better and soon will be done

You will be free of me, free to run

Confusion

My mind is swirling and I am losing the race

I cannot seem to find my way out of this place

I am selfish and bitter, cold and hard

Mean and hateful, worn out and tired

 Mad at the world, alone in my head

My ugly thoughts they fill me with dread

One day at a time is just how I live

I don't take to much and have little to give

I have very few friends, I have chased them all away

My wife left me for another man one day

So why am I conflicted why is there so much pain

Like a sheet of fine paper left out in the rain

Because she came back just to ring my bell

Now life again is not looking so swell

Used

Feeling lonely and tired, been hung out to dry

This empty feeling leaves me wondering, why

What is to come, what shall be

Emptiness, alone for me to see

Playing second fiddle when I should play none

I am thinking that this time I am done

It serves me no good and it will break my heart

But I gotta let you go, you deserve a fresh start  

Reaper

When I was a young man, I never thought of you
You visited me when I least expected, and have haunted me ever since
We never talk about you, and if we do, it is only in hushed tones
You take from us our joy, our spirit, and leave only sorrow
Always near, lurking in the shadows, ready and willing to exact your toll
We run from you but we cannot hide
As an older man I try to accept you
You are never far from my thoughts

Pounding

This pounding that is in my chest

This pounding will not let me rest

This pounding yes it gives me life

This pounding yes it gives me strife

This pounding.......