Thursday, February 28, 2013


I was once grounded in a world of reality and simple dreams
I felt a sense of guilt and responsibility,  albeit unfounded
I have now opened the door to a life of chaos
A life of delusional thoughts
A life of grandiose unattainable dreams
A life filled with a growing resentment
A life that is now becoming shorter and shorter
Everything I do, everything I say, everything I think is wrong
I was wrong for so many years and nothing it seems has changed
I toiled for years and gave up some of my passions
Now I must give them up again
I have already started
I don't have time to wait
I don't have time to play catch up
I cannot keep starting over
I cannot always be wrong
I am a slave to my emotions
Now I am giving up
My friends
My passions
My hopes
My dreams
My life

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

An End

I think you are trying to kill me, I think you want me to die
These feelings are deep in my heart, I just cannot lie
Why oh why did you ever come back
Is it so you can witness my heart attack
The stress you bring makes me feel real old
Emotionless, weary and a heart that is cold
I don't know what you want, you are chasing a dream
In reality you only make my mind scream
I wish I could help you, I really do
But you won't help yourself, so what can I do
You make me mad, you are crushing my dreams
My brain is full and busting at the seams
It won't take long, less than a year
I hope you have a lovely life my dear