Chaos

I was once grounded in a world of reality and simple dreams

I felt a sense of guilt and responsibility,  albeit unfounded

I have now opened the door to a life of chaos

A life of delusional thoughts

A life of grandiose unattainable dreams

A life filled with a growing resentment

A life that is now becoming shorter and shorter

Everything I do, everything I say, everything I think is wrong

I was wrong for so many years and nothing it seems has changed

I toiled for years and gave up some of my passions

Now I must give them up again

I have already started

I don't have time to wait

I don't have time to play catch up

I cannot keep starting over

I cannot always be wrong

I am a slave to my emotions

Now I am giving up

My friends

My passions

My hopes

My dreams

My life