Confusion

My mind is swirling and I am losing the race

I cannot seem to find my way out of this place

I am selfish and bitter, cold and hard

Mean and hateful, worn out and tired

 Mad at the world, alone in my head

My ugly thoughts they fill me with dread

One day at a time is just how I live

I don't take to much and have little to give

I have very few friends, I have chased them all away

My wife left me for another man one day

So why am I conflicted why is there so much pain

Like a sheet of fine paper left out in the rain

Because she came back just to ring my bell

Now life again is not looking so swell

Used

Feeling lonely and tired, been hung out to dry

This empty feeling leaves me wondering, why

What is to come, what shall be

Emptiness, alone for me to see

Playing second fiddle when I should play none

I am thinking that this time I am done

It serves me no good and it will break my heart

But I gotta let you go, you deserve a fresh start