Depression

I have a burden I cannot seem to put down

I have a burden that I spread all around

I think a demon resides within my soul

I think a demon is exacting a terrible toll

I have days where I think nothing is wrong

I have days that read like a sad, sad song

I do not want to feel this way

I do not have the power to bring to sway

I am being punished I know this is true

I am being punished, when will it be through

I am tormented, tormented beyond my control

I am tormented, tormented, ever so slow

I once was a bright shining star

I am now but a shadow long and far
I wish, I wish, I could end my pain
I wish, I wish, I could stop this rain

Black

Darkness, darkness, black as night

Deep dark thoughts that just aren't right

Struggle and struggle and try to fight

Fighting, fighting, with all of my might

Such a pitiful fool, a pitiful sight

Happy Birthday

Sometimes I simply hate myself

I have fouled up every good thing in my life

I have never accomplished anything

I never finish anything

Not sure why I am even still here

Thoughts of death keep rolling through my mind

Why did I not die

When will I die

How will I die

What happens afterward

I am selfish

I am self centered

I am always angry

I push away those that truly love me
I have pushed away any friend I have ever had

I feel so lost

I feel so alone

I want to hide

Sometimes I simply hate myself