Separated

I was alone in a vast expanse

I separated from reality

There were the two of you

Yet I was not there

Bits and pieces

Glimpses

Terror

Extreme disassociation

In my mind

I died

I existed on a plain other than the physical

For the briefest of moments

Before it collapsed around me 

Engulfed me in terror

Then I returned

Slowly

Ever so slow

Foggy

Most amazing thing

Ever

Long Time

Been taught forever

But never learned

The hardest thing

I will ever do

Is to forgive

Myself

For ever doubting myself

For giving up on myself

For fucking up

For making poor decisions

For making mistakes

For things

Out of my control

Forgive others

But, Myself

Never understood

Never gave it a thought

Forgive myself

Forgive myself

Forgive everyone else

Forgive myself