I Want

In a deep depressive state

Cannot remember if I was ever a nice person

I think I have a great dislike for myself

I used to like myself

Now

I feel like the shit

That gets stuck on your shoe

A foul stench follows

I have always been wrong

When I was a kid

When I was a young man

When I was a married man

Now when I am an aging man

Makes me want to hide from

My family

My friends

The world itself

I want to run away

I want

I want

I want