Borrowed Time

It is a daily struggle to get out of bed

It is a daily struggle to avoid the dread

Sometimes I have a plan 

Other times I don't

I pretend to believe

You wouldn't even know

I feel frustrated with

My inability to accomplish

Anything

I get so, so mad

So easy

Frustrated with my frustration

I sometimes feel like

I am living on time that is not mine

Like I cheated life somehow

Like I shouldn't be here

Like I am not deserved

But I am, here, still

It is a daily struggle to get out of bed

It is a daily struggle to avoid the dread

Old and Tired

Feel like my feet are stuck in the mud

Cloudy thoughts

Blurred vision

Floating aimlessly

Still struggle with the day to day

Forget, a lot

No motivation

No drive

No passion

Momentary bursts of energy

Long periods of tiredness and malaise

They are becoming more frequent

Not depressed

Simply lethargic

Feel worthless and lazy