Borrowed Time

It is a daily struggle to get out of bed

It is a daily struggle to avoid the dread

Sometimes I have a plan 

Other times I don't

I pretend to believe

You wouldn't even know

I feel frustrated with

My inability to accomplish

Anything

I get so, so mad

So easy

Frustrated with my frustration

I sometimes feel like

I am living on time that is not mine

Like I cheated life somehow

Like I shouldn't be here

Like I am not deserved

But I am, here, still

It is a daily struggle to get out of bed

It is a daily struggle to avoid the dread