Caught

Waves of emotion

Come over me

Completely out of the blue

Heart starts racing and thumping

Nothing that I can do

Caught in a relentless storm

No shelter to be found

Lightening is striking

Dark heavy Sky's

Crashing down all around

Frozen by fear

Can't move or I'll fall

Wondering why

Why it happened at all

Troubled

Mean and nasty, so full of hate

I have to rush, I can't be late

I'm a rotten example 

A pain in the ass

I'm thoughtless and selfish

I have no class

I get as mad as a chainsaw

At the drop of a hat

Cannot control it

That's where I'm at

Mean and nasty, so full of hate

I wonder.........

What it is like to be kind and thoughtful

Pleasant to be around

I wonder........

Out of Tune

I'm stuck in a song where I don't belong

Like an out of place note

Got a hole in my tote

Got a hair on my nose

Don't know how to pose

Stuck in a song where I don't belong

Out of tune or out of touch

Don't seem like it takes to much

To sing the wrong song

An hour or a day

Possibly two if you may

But I'm gonna sing out of tune

In a song where I don't belong

Past

Chasing memories

Chasing ghosts

Chasing dreams

Eating toast

Don't know what to look for

Maybe it's already been found

Looking for music

Seeing the sound

Trying to see what is in my soul

Is there any hope

Or just a deep dark hole

I feel not right

I feel not well

I hope 

I do not

End up

In hell

To Much

I talk to much

I talk but I don't have much to say

I talk to much

I thought I had something to say

Echos in an empty bucket

I talk to much

I think I have something to say

Echos from the past

I want to have something to talk about

Echos in the dark

But I have nothing to say

I talk to much 

Interflection

A fragile balance

A friendly truce

Trying to make things right

Before I am through

A balanced existence

A thoughtful mind

A helping hand

A place without anxiety

A day without dread

Finding peace

Finding some joy

Not hating myself

For being alive

I was not fair

To myself

Still broken

Not shattered

Anymore

Blink

Down the rabbit hole I did go

Who would think and how would we know

From whence a turn I did not expect

Left me a complete and total wreck

From bliss to black and back again

My legs they move and my head it spins

I don't know where I went 

I don't know what I said

I remember thinking

That I was dead

Fear had overcame me

My reality was skewed

Colors and sounds

Before me were strewn